Hello. I am very unfortunately alive.

I have relapsed.

And I am disgusted at myself for eating.

But, I am alive.

I still would like to kill myself.

But at the moment, I am living.

I am sorry for scaring anyone.

I may kill myself in the future, but at the moment I am living.

Roman will have been dead a year on Tuesday. I am going to sob and cut my way through that one.

I love you all.

You don't have to cut your way through it. We're all here for you, do your parents know..anything.?

cam, just please please stay safe. we all are here for you. i love you, ok? <33

Cam please respond, I want you to be okay, please be okay. At least be alive. I wanna share something I heard somewhere. "Death doesn't happen to you, it happens to all the people around you."

Remember when we lost Roman? How we all felt? That's how we'd feel about you. And we need you. Even if you can't hang on for you, hang on for us. ❤️

Please respond. I miss you, I just want to know you're alive.

988 is the suicide prevention hotline number and if you can't talk to us please talk to them

It wasn't your fault. You didn't fail them. If you're going to say that, the you have to say we all failed them.