Aster, I don’t deserve what you told me. I don’t deserve any of you on here.

I deserve far worse than this. I deserve death and don’t even try to deny it.

I’m only still alive because I made Roman a promise. Without that, I can guarantee you I would have stopped breathing a damn long time ago.

I’m unintentionally eating weird and worrying about my fucking body image again.

Worried I’m gonna relapse, too.

God I don’t deserve any of you on here. You deserve so much better than someone who technically killed your friend.

The first thing to make me cry since my anti-depressants was what you told me last night, Aster.

Thank you. But I don’t deserve it.

Honestly, who cares if I was a child? If I was traumatized, and I still am? Others have trauma too. This isn’t even bad, I’ve seen people with far worse trauma than mine.

I’m making a fucking big deal out of this, as I do with everything. God fucking damnit.

I really wanna kill myself right now man. The world would be far better.

God I hurt my partner so much. I was looking through Finn’s old posts and Jesus Christ I hurt them.

Who gives a shit if it’s midnight? I’m texting them. Who gives a shit if they broke up with me?

I feel like a piece of shit. I AM a piece of shit.

God I don’t want to relapse. I don’t want to eat weird. I don’t want to worry about my body and what it looks like.

I want this fucking pain to go away

I thinkcmd im gonnan cyr i cantbreate

CAM???? R U ALIVE??? Please keep your promise to Roman. Please.and just because people have more trauma doesnt mean you'rs isn't important

cam please keep your promise- i know its like a cliche or whatever- but itll get better. all you need is time. and dont worry about how you

look. you are perfect in every way, you hear me? you deserve the world. like lime said, your trauma matters. yes, some people may have more

than you, but that dosent mean that yours is insignificant. you matter, ok? you mattered to roman, you matter to us. just please, please

dont do anything.

cam are you there??

Noooo! Don't do it!!!!!!💔💔

hey, cam? i know we haven’t talked in a while but please, please don’t do anything. i know i really can’t do anything to stop you, but please, don’t hurt yourself.

hey cam, are you there? if you are just know that ily and im here for you :) <33 please stay safe.

i love you sm cam- please stay.

Cam please respond.. I can't loose one more fucking person...