I’m fucking pathetic. I get triggered by the randomest shit. My heart starts racing and it won’t stop. I can’t even learn about the ancient Romans in history because I flinch when I hear Roman’s name.
Guilt, maybe? My friends in my history class have been like “What the fuck Cam? You ok dude? You just flinched-“ and I just tell them it was a fly or something. The guilt eats at me.
Fuck everything. I have to leave my vacation and go to summer camp in two days. My partner could be there. I can’t deal with seeing them, fuck my anti-depressants, that’ll make me be able to cry.
God I think I may have loved them back then. I don’t know. Online dating isn’t my style but I had a connection with them? Maybe? I don’t know. I miss them.
Please. All I'm asking,keep taking your meds, keep breathing, and please, please for the love of God, eat. I know I wasn't nearly as close to them as you were, but it isn't your fault.
I know it' s a hard pill to swallow but it wasn't anyones fault, they did what they thought was best, and they were wrong. We just have to live without making the same wrong decision
@sᴛᴜᴘɪᴅ ᴀss sᴏɴ ᴏғ ᴀ ʙɪᴛᴄʜ Lime, it was me. They’re dead because of me. Remember when they said “Everyone’s trying to kill themselves, why shouldn’t I?”. They said that right after I posted about being suicidal. It’s my fault.
@🍋Limey🍋 and you aren' t everyone. We all were in a rough place so don' t blame yourself for something we all did, because then you'd have to blame all of us just as damn much
God damn it. Cameron. Stop.
Be strong asshole.
I don’t deserve you guys and I never will because I should be dead.
All I’ve eaten is salads and I’ve binged junk food afterwards and felt terrible.
What the fuck? I should just be dead.
I just wanted to tell my friend something I found interesting and I got the (albeit joking) response “You need Jesus”.
But that’s not even a problem.
I still cough blood, you know? I want to shoot myself in the head
I feel like I’m gonna puke and I have a fear of vomiting. This is lovely.
I want to literally kill myself. Please never give me a gun I will genuinely shoot myself.
I’m fucking pathetic. I get triggered by the randomest shit. My heart starts racing and it won’t stop. I can’t even learn about the ancient Romans in history because I flinch when I hear Roman’s name.
Guilt, maybe? My friends in my history class have been like “What the fuck Cam? You ok dude? You just flinched-“ and I just tell them it was a fly or something. The guilt eats at me.
Fuck everything. I have to leave my vacation and go to summer camp in two days. My partner could be there. I can’t deal with seeing them, fuck my anti-depressants, that’ll make me be able to cry.
My parents won’t stop deadnaming me. How many fucking times do I have to remind them? THEY/THEM, CAMERON.
I swear to God I‘m going to fucking scream. I can’t do this shit anymore. I want to die. I want to die. I want to die.
I’m scrolling through everyone’s old posts, praying I’ll find some sliver of Roman there. God damn it.
God I think I may have loved them back then. I don’t know. Online dating isn’t my style but I had a connection with them? Maybe? I don’t know. I miss them.
I feel so guilty.
Please. All I'm asking,keep taking your meds, keep breathing, and please, please for the love of God, eat. I know I wasn't nearly as close to them as you were, but it isn't your fault.
I know it' s a hard pill to swallow but it wasn't anyones fault, they did what they thought was best, and they were wrong. We just have to live without making the same wrong decision
@sᴛᴜᴘɪᴅ ᴀss sᴏɴ ᴏғ ᴀ ʙɪᴛᴄʜ Lime, it was me. They’re dead because of me. Remember when they said “Everyone’s trying to kill themselves, why shouldn’t I?”. They said that right after I posted about being suicidal. It’s my fault.
They’re gone. If I hadn’t posted that that night, they could still be here. They could have lived long enough to get help. Survive.
I Can8t breatht
Imbd freiAkingout
@🍋Limey🍋 and you aren' t everyone. We all were in a rough place so don' t blame yourself for something we all did, because then you'd have to blame all of us just as damn much
@✎ʀɛաʀɨȶɛ ʏօʊʀ ʟɨʄɛ✎ cam, please. please stay alive. cam. i barely knew them, but they wouldnt want this for you. it was their
decision. it was not your fault. please- please dont do it. i couldnt live with it. if i can stop you, ill do whatever i can. im not making
the same mistake again.