hey- so i- uh- i- ive started relapsing again. worse than before. there 5 on my thighs 3 on my wrists and some on my ankles and i cant fuckn
take it anymore. i dont wanna kms but at this point its almost to much. i couldnt kms anyways so dw. i feel like theres no reason for me to
feel this way bc i have a nice home life n stuff but its the fuckin chemicals- im hurting some people. i came so close to telling my best
friend to go fuck off and that i cant take her fucking complaining anymore. and then to top it all off i wake up this morning with a cut on
my thumb like a shallow stab mark with my red line maker- and its right next to me. i did it in my sleep. my fucking mind hates me- heh-
maybe i shouldnt bother living anymore. i cant even eat anymore. this morning the smell and taste of food almost made me throw up so i threw
it out. and i hate throwing out food. thats how bad it was. im sorry. im sorry for all ive done.
Breathe. You need to talk to someone, anyone. Not us in a game, but in real life. People who come from nice homes could be hurt mentally. It
doesn't matter what home you come from. Your pain is still pain. I think you just did that in your sleep, because you're in a bad mindset.
Please, please keep living. I couldn't handle it if you died. Don't be sorry.
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ Ily Aster. YOU'RE AMAZING
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* ik- i really need a therapist but my parents are so stressed out rn- we might not be able to renew our
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* lease cus the people we are renting from want to move back in in june or july and my mom is freaked- we
wont have a place to go when that time is up- so i just really dont want to worry them, to have them spend their money to get me a therapy-
so idk what to do. im sorry nessie- thats the one thing i wont do. anything but that. ily too- you are more amazing so there
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ oh shoot. I really hope you guys are able to renew the lease. That does make sense about not worrying
them. Don't apologize, you've got nothing to apologize for. Maybe you could, like, exercise more or some crap online. It might work!!
please stay safe. i know it’s hard and it can all feel pointless. especially after relapsing. try distracting yourself. that can help. your safety is the most important thing. i‘m here for you 💜
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* true, im tryna get into a workout routine but im lazy sooo- yeah i tryed to distract myself bc usually
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* i read a book or smth but i didnt have any books at that time- i have books now and im trying to not cut
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* for christmas and see how long i could go into the new year- :)
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* im doing my best- i usually read a book, yk, like "a book a day keeps reality away" is my mantra lol- thank you carter :)
@𝚙𝖺𝘁𝕔𝐡𝑤ℴʀꀘ aster please stay safe- life will get better eventually, i promise, ily and i need you to live. please stay safe ❤️
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* i am- ly camera you stay safe too-
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ dang I'm lazy. you could try yoga or meditation, but like yoga is weird. Booooookkkksssss are gooodddd
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ You can do it ᕙ(*•̀ᗜ•́*)ᕗ I BELIEVE IN YOU ✨✨✨
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* aw ness that emoji-but-not thing is so cute lol i have those but i dont have that one- THANK YOU ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
@𝚙𝖺𝘁𝕔𝐡𝑤ℴʀꀘ good :) and i will! ily aster /p
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ YOU'RE VERY WELCOME 💪('ω'💪)
hey- so i- uh- i- ive started relapsing again. worse than before. there 5 on my thighs 3 on my wrists and some on my ankles and i cant fuckn
take it anymore. i dont wanna kms but at this point its almost to much. i couldnt kms anyways so dw. i feel like theres no reason for me to
feel this way bc i have a nice home life n stuff but its the fuckin chemicals- im hurting some people. i came so close to telling my best
friend to go fuck off and that i cant take her fucking complaining anymore. and then to top it all off i wake up this morning with a cut on
my thumb like a shallow stab mark with my red line maker- and its right next to me. i did it in my sleep. my fucking mind hates me- heh-
maybe i shouldnt bother living anymore. i cant even eat anymore. this morning the smell and taste of food almost made me throw up so i threw
it out. and i hate throwing out food. thats how bad it was. im sorry. im sorry for all ive done.
Breathe. You need to talk to someone, anyone. Not us in a game, but in real life. People who come from nice homes could be hurt mentally. It
doesn't matter what home you come from. Your pain is still pain. I think you just did that in your sleep, because you're in a bad mindset.
Please, please keep living. I couldn't handle it if you died. Don't be sorry.
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ Ily Aster. YOU'RE AMAZING
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* ik- i really need a therapist but my parents are so stressed out rn- we might not be able to renew our
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* lease cus the people we are renting from want to move back in in june or july and my mom is freaked- we
wont have a place to go when that time is up- so i just really dont want to worry them, to have them spend their money to get me a therapy-
so idk what to do. im sorry nessie- thats the one thing i wont do. anything but that. ily too- you are more amazing so there
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ oh shoot. I really hope you guys are able to renew the lease. That does make sense about not worrying
them. Don't apologize, you've got nothing to apologize for. Maybe you could, like, exercise more or some crap online. It might work!!
please stay safe. i know it’s hard and it can all feel pointless. especially after relapsing. try distracting yourself. that can help. your safety is the most important thing. i‘m here for you 💜
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* true, im tryna get into a workout routine but im lazy sooo- yeah i tryed to distract myself bc usually
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* i read a book or smth but i didnt have any books at that time- i have books now and im trying to not cut
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* for christmas and see how long i could go into the new year- :)
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* im doing my best- i usually read a book, yk, like "a book a day keeps reality away" is my mantra lol- thank you carter :)
@𝚙𝖺𝘁𝕔𝐡𝑤ℴʀꀘ aster please stay safe- life will get better eventually, i promise, ily and i need you to live. please stay safe ❤️
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* i am- ly camera you stay safe too-
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ dang I'm lazy. you could try yoga or meditation, but like yoga is weird. Booooookkkksssss are gooodddd
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ You can do it ᕙ(*•̀ᗜ•́*)ᕗ I BELIEVE IN YOU ✨✨✨
@*°•𝓱𝓸𝔀 𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓫𝓻𝓸𝓴𝓮𝓷•°* aw ness that emoji-but-not thing is so cute lol i have those but i dont have that one- THANK YOU ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ
@𝚙𝖺𝘁𝕔𝐡𝑤ℴʀꀘ good :) and i will! ily aster /p
@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ YOU'RE VERY WELCOME 💪('ω'💪)