our current mood

all jokes aside, want to talk about it though?

you ok?

are you doing ok aster? and if not can i help?

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* i feel like im faking everything to everyone and idk who tf i am. i lie to myself and idk what i truly

feel. it was really bad when i thought i was poly. i turned poly bc i thought it would make me and vi happier and just better, especially

when she was dating sky. i believed i was polyamorous with all my being. then i realized that i wasnt, and now i cant trust myself. i cant

fucking trust myself anymore- i cant trust anyone. aNd- i took a test to see if i have bpd- and gUeSs what? heheheh- i hAvE mOdErAtE bPd

most likely. so he-hey- aint that greatttt- my life is fuckin pathetic. and its not like i have a horrible home life. i have a pretty damn

good life, and then i beat myself up bc im mad that i feel this way. my parents arent abusive, altho my mom is a tad old fashioned, im happy

there. mostly- my sister shares a room w me and she takes my shit all the time lol. anyways yeah thats that.

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* aboooove-

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* idk if anyone can help- look aboveeee-

@hey its carter :D hey its ok aster. how you feel is completely valid regardless of how good you have it, you can absolutely still feel like shit. and not knowing your identity is totally normal. you’re still figuring

yourself out and that takes time. it doesn’t mean you cant trust yourself. you know yourself better than anyone else. you’ll figure it out eventually. just know that how you feel is perfectly fine

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ I think you don't want people to be mad if you don't agree with them. You want others to be happy and you'll lie to

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ yourself for that.

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ This really isn't a thing that I can help tbh. You just have to figure it our yourself??? Sorry, that's vague lol

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* thankie carter- tbh that does make me feel a bit better. :)

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* yeah- that is what i feel most of the time- its ok ness i dont think that its anything that you can help

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* with lol- i need a tHeRapIst- OMG- I JUST REALIZED- WTF- IF YOU PUT A SPACE BETWEEN THE E AND R IT SAYS

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* with lol- i need a tHeRapIst- OMG- I JUST REALIZED- WTF- IF YOU PUT A SPACE BETWEEN THE E AND R IT SAYS

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* 'THE RAPIST'. WHAT THE FUCKKKK BDONDSBDSBSBDJD- i am tired :D

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* 'THE RAPIST'. WHAT THE FUCKKKK BDONDSBDSBSBDJD- i am tired :D

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ YOU NEED SLEEP

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ LIKE DESPERATELY BUT SVDIWVSOSNDIEBDEOBSDJOEBTOS THERAPISTTT

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* IK IT IS NOT HEALTHY DINCSODBODBD BUT SOMEHOW SLEEP EVADES ME :'D

@hey its carter :D np buddy <3 im here for you

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ YOU NEED TO WACK SLEEP IN THE FACE but fr, you should search up ways to try to sleep

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* ty carter :)) <3

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* I WILL SMACK IT LIKE I SMACK MY SISTERS ASS WHEN SHE IS ANNOYING :DD imma do that rn-

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ lol TBH I DO THAT TOO

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* :DD

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ :DDDD

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ DID YOU SLEEP ANY BETTER?

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* i did for some reason :D

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ yayyy!! you deserve a cookie 🍪

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* *eats le cookie* dat was a yummy cookie :D

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ good good

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ How's lifeee

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* its better than it was, i had a band thing last night where we went to the beach and played christmas

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* songs and a bunch of schools did singing and dancing and the hs im going to next year played some songs w

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* ith their steel drum band and it was freakin awesome :D the n i went to sleep at like 10 and didnt wake

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* up (kinda, but i didnt open my eyes) until 11.30 which is when im writing this and im happy :DD hbu??

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ A BAND THING AT A BEACH? AT NIGHT?

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ NO WAY. that's so cool. You'll absolutely love and hate hs. Asterick this is amaaaazing.

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ You have more of a life than me lol. But really, I don't have a life outside of school. Nothing really happens

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* lol it was really awesome i am so glad i have band :))

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ My tune deaf ears could never lol

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* lol i play flute its awesome

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ I would never guess that, but it totally makes sense so 👏🏻👏🏻👏🏻

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* if you are tune deaf (which im sure you arent) and you wanted to do band, you could try percussion its

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* really cool too. anyways- gm although idk your timezone- its 6.50 for me rn in fl :D

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ I just woke up rn, so idk what time that was

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ I had to go to bed early because I got in trouble for tying to explain my side of the story

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ Playing instruments are so coooolll

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* what happened?

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ My mom out in a load a laundry, and didn't tell me I had to do it. The next night I got in trouble because apparent

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ ly my mom "told" me to do the laundry. She didn't and I tried to explain, so yea

@*°•~ι~ɳҽҽԃ~ɱყ~ʂραƈҽ~•°* ah funsies

@❥🎶𝓽𝓸 𝓫𝓮 𝓼𝓸 𝓵𝓸𝓷𝓮𝓵𝔂🎶❥ oh totally lol