I was on a call with some friends and I remember one of the questions one of them asked me was what do u think future generations will face
and struggle with ....and I said 2020 terror .... we all low-key started laughing cause I didn't even have to think about it
I swear 2020 is gonna someday be known as a bad event in history and all of us who have made it through will be fucking survivors for all
the shit that has happened this year
@ivy yeh
ivy
I'm so sorry what my mother did im not dead
@ivy what ????????
@ivy omg do u realize the mental hell ur mom put me through I thought u were dead 😭😭
@...🖤 im so sorry I didn't know what she was doing
@ivy I almost fucking died
@...🖤 im so sorry ivy
@ivy can we call ? on duo I wanna see u even if we don't say anything ....
@...🖤 i cant im not supposed to be on here and my mom can't know we're still talking
@ivy omg I'm just glad ur here ......I wrote u a letter btw ...it's on one of my posts
@...🖤 oh ok
@ivy it's kinda long
@ivy it's not the bday one it's the other one
@...🖤 ok
@ivy I would say I love u but that's kinda weird now
@...🖤 well ily as a friend. so ur gf doesn't get mad at me
@ivy she wouldn't be mad at u
@ivy I still actually love u ...
@...🖤 thank u that means alot to me
@ivy it's complicated now tho cause I still love u as in like more than friends....*hides face *
@...🖤 im sorry I dont want to make ur life complicated. ill go
@ivy noooo 😭😭😭😭😭
@ivy I need u stay plz stay
@...🖤 ok but if u ever want ne gone just say so
@ivy plz stay dont go I just lost u and I can't have that happen again plzzz don't go
@ivy and I never want u gone the pain of losing u was unbearable
@ivy so what's happened since we last talked it's been a while
@ivy ?
@...🖤 nothing really I've been grounded so
@...🖤 wbu
@ivy alot ...ummmm I cut more after I "died " and umm I haven't relapsed in 5 weeks cause I can't do it cause I don't wanna disappoint
@ivy u and I have had a rough time with a hell of a toxic friend I met my gf now and we is still together
@ivy umm...my bio dad is being an absolute dick to my mom and making her pay for a ton of court shit
@ivy and I've almost lost a couple friends and my cousin to suicide
@...🖤 oh well the gf thing is good but im sorry about the rest
@ivy I also have came out to 8 friends and my cousin who also came out to me even tho my parents banned me from doing that and they
@ivy don't know I have done it ....my parents are low-key also still really homophobic
@...🖤 im sorry
@ivy it's ok
@...🖤 u sure
@ivy yeh I mean I'm used to things going wrong it's 2020
@...🖤 yea
@ivy miss u
@...🖤 miss u too
@ivy hey....
@...🖤 hey
@ivy can we talk....I'm lonely .....
@...🖤 yea ofc. u can always talk to me
@ivy I have a kinda personal question...
@ivy how were u gonna kill yourself?...I'm sorry this is a really personal question ...
@...🖤 i was gunna cut my wrists and legs and if that didn't work I was gunna jump off my balcony
@ivy oh ....ur mom said that u suffocated yourself so I didn't know if that was ur actual plan to end it all ......I love ya and I'm
@ivy really glad ur here .....u being gone hurt alot
@ivy it's not ur fault it's ur mom's fault u didn't put me through any mental hell ur mom was the one who did .....u made it better by
@ivy being here and coming back
@...🖤 i still feel bad abt it
@ivy its ok .....I'm used to dealing with alot this year I just expect the worse at this point
@...🖤 itll turn out ok
@ivy I still have to figure out how to break up with my one gf but I can't fucking do it cause I'm a people pleaser and hate to hurt peopl
@ivy people
@...🖤 did she do something to u? and u just don't wanna hurt anything which makes u a really good person
@ivy no.....I fucked up got into another poly relationship then realized I wasn't polly and completely lost feeling for my one gf and
@ivy love my other gf alotttt
@...🖤 oh im sorry
@ivy yeh it's really complicated and I feel guilty cause it's my fault and I have to break up with my one gf but I cant fucking do Itttr
@...🖤 i wish I could help
@...🖤 im really sorry but I have to go to bed
@ivy Oki ttyt
@...🖤 ttyl
I was on a call with some friends and I remember one of the questions one of them asked me was what do u think future generations will face
and struggle with ....and I said 2020 terror .... we all low-key started laughing cause I didn't even have to think about it
I swear 2020 is gonna someday be known as a bad event in history and all of us who have made it through will be fucking survivors for all
the shit that has happened this year
@ivy yeh
ivy
I'm so sorry what my mother did im not dead
@ivy what ????????
@ivy omg do u realize the mental hell ur mom put me through I thought u were dead 😭😭
@...🖤 im so sorry I didn't know what she was doing
@ivy I almost fucking died
@...🖤 im so sorry ivy
@ivy can we call ? on duo I wanna see u even if we don't say anything ....
@...🖤 i cant im not supposed to be on here and my mom can't know we're still talking
@ivy omg I'm just glad ur here ......I wrote u a letter btw ...it's on one of my posts
@...🖤 oh ok
@ivy it's kinda long
@ivy it's not the bday one it's the other one
@...🖤 ok
@ivy I would say I love u but that's kinda weird now
@...🖤 well ily as a friend. so ur gf doesn't get mad at me
@ivy she wouldn't be mad at u
@ivy I still actually love u ...
@...🖤 thank u that means alot to me
@ivy it's complicated now tho cause I still love u as in like more than friends....*hides face *
@...🖤 im sorry I dont want to make ur life complicated. ill go
@ivy noooo 😭😭😭😭😭
@ivy I need u stay plz stay
@...🖤 ok but if u ever want ne gone just say so
@ivy plz stay dont go I just lost u and I can't have that happen again plzzz don't go
@ivy and I never want u gone the pain of losing u was unbearable
@...🖤 ok
@ivy so what's happened since we last talked it's been a while
@ivy ?
@...🖤 nothing really I've been grounded so
@...🖤 wbu
@ivy alot ...ummmm I cut more after I "died " and umm I haven't relapsed in 5 weeks cause I can't do it cause I don't wanna disappoint
@ivy u and I have had a rough time with a hell of a toxic friend I met my gf now and we is still together
@ivy umm...my bio dad is being an absolute dick to my mom and making her pay for a ton of court shit
@ivy and I've almost lost a couple friends and my cousin to suicide
@...🖤 oh well the gf thing is good but im sorry about the rest
@ivy I also have came out to 8 friends and my cousin who also came out to me even tho my parents banned me from doing that and they
@ivy don't know I have done it ....my parents are low-key also still really homophobic
@...🖤 im sorry
@ivy it's ok
@...🖤 u sure
@ivy yeh I mean I'm used to things going wrong it's 2020
@...🖤 yea
@ivy miss u
@...🖤 miss u too
@ivy hey....
@...🖤 hey
@ivy can we talk....I'm lonely .....
@...🖤 yea ofc. u can always talk to me
@ivy I have a kinda personal question...
@...🖤 ok
@ivy how were u gonna kill yourself?...I'm sorry this is a really personal question ...
@...🖤 i was gunna cut my wrists and legs and if that didn't work I was gunna jump off my balcony
@ivy oh ....ur mom said that u suffocated yourself so I didn't know if that was ur actual plan to end it all ......I love ya and I'm
@ivy really glad ur here .....u being gone hurt alot
@...🖤 im sorry
@ivy it's not ur fault it's ur mom's fault u didn't put me through any mental hell ur mom was the one who did .....u made it better by
@ivy being here and coming back
@...🖤 i still feel bad abt it
@ivy its ok .....I'm used to dealing with alot this year I just expect the worse at this point
@...🖤 itll turn out ok
@ivy I still have to figure out how to break up with my one gf but I can't fucking do it cause I'm a people pleaser and hate to hurt peopl
@ivy people
@...🖤 did she do something to u? and u just don't wanna hurt anything which makes u a really good person
@ivy no.....I fucked up got into another poly relationship then realized I wasn't polly and completely lost feeling for my one gf and
@ivy love my other gf alotttt
@...🖤 oh im sorry
@ivy yeh it's really complicated and I feel guilty cause it's my fault and I have to break up with my one gf but I cant fucking do Itttr
@...🖤 i wish I could help
@...🖤 im really sorry but I have to go to bed
@ivy Oki ttyt
@...🖤 ttyl