@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ whenever I'm sad, I'm unpredictable. I'm always like that, I don't know how I will react next.
@clay I'ma stare at my ceiling for awhile, if you wanna talk I'll be here
@clay if you passed out infront of you i bet he'd pick you up, lay you on the couch and try to wake you up
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yes, he'll pick me up, throw me on a couch or bed and start sobbing t'ill I wake up.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ jk,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he would know instantly how to wake me up, he's a smart-a**
@clay he might
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ HE ALWAYS KNOWS WHAT TO DO, LIKE, HOWW?
@clay XD
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I also do, but I say it only when others can't solve it ;{
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ cause then I'll make a bad reputation and I don't want that
@clay yeah
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I wanna share this smoll story with you cause why not?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so, few weeks ago, I was with Gabi around my friend group, they were being silly, as usual, but somehow weve been left alone and my
Head started to hurt like hell and I was sweating a lot, I asked Gabi to hold my glasses so I could wipe off the sweat from my face, and he
Decided to try them on, I couldn't see his face clearly, but he seems like a cute and innocent child discoving something completely new
They also didn't fit him,and he said "they're so smoll and cute, I didn't knew your head was so small :O"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ nd he started teasing me cause I could see, and he gave them back only when he noticed that I wasn't playing and that my mood wasn't
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ good. After he handed my glasses back to me, he tried to brighten up my mood and he was just so cute *-*
Couldn't *
@clay thats adorable 💚💛
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yass..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and he can always make me laugh. I'm not sure how, he starts acting goofy and silly in front of me and I end up laughing like a psycho
@clay ivy won't text me backkkkkkkk
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I can relate on that- Blondie never texts back
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he prefers calls, you shall try calling her? Maybe FaceTime?
@clay we cant have eachothers numbers sadly, i don't wanna risk her being kicked out
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ kicked out? Out of where?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just pretend that you're "just friends"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I dont think her family will find out
@clay out of her house, her parents are homophobic
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ disgusting, I hate homophobic people
@clay same
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ like, can't you just accept everybody? I bet homos don't like you neither--
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ( ͡ಥ ͜ʖ ͡ಥ)
@clay but still i really don't want to risk it for her
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you could fool her parents that you're just friends
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I think lying is fine, only if it means to help someone
@clay well i still won't do it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ alright, I was just saying.
@clay we both agreed that once we get decent jobs and move out that we will meet up
@clay thats only if we hopefully still keep in touch
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you could try manifesting it with subs..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I made a manifestation playlist for me, I hope it'll work as fast as possible and that we'll soon meet! 💕
@clay me too
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ^°^
@clay which subliminal should i use
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ uh, I'm not sure
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ there are plenty of options
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I highly recommend kapelsu's effortlessly manifestation sub, +sum boosters and blockage removers and noonchi's ideal scenarios sub
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ (re-upload, cause her channel got hacked)
@clay ok
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh, and for your situation, I recommend kapelsu's friendship restoration sub and attract your crush sub, they both have affirmations
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that fit your situation
@clay yea i have been daily, and I've noticed me and ivy have been getting closer
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ heh, I just made a new playlist only for manifestation, ill keep you updated!
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I wish you good luck too! ^°^
@clay okay
@clay you too, thx
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so, do you want to start listening now? I can leave, if you want me to
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm hungry and a little sleepy too, so, I won't be mad
@clay its okay im here i was just making a playlist
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hewwo
@clay het
@clay hey*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ how's your journey going? I didn't start mine yet, I couldn't get enough time to listen
@clay eh, i gave up to be honest
@clay i just haven't been my best today
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ a-alright.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ then I'll try my best to manifest it alone..
@clay you don't have to, idc anymore
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ well, i do.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I would love to meet you, no matter the cost
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and what do you mean by "idc anymore" you don't care about me? ;\
@clay its never gonna happen anyway.. id push you away sooner or later. probably sooner
@clay no. no. don't get me wrong youre one of my favorite people
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ well, I'll never forget you, no matter what will happen
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I wouldn't let you to push me away, cause I'm extremely annoying, so I will somehow get to talk to you
@clay xd
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ u-u I just know how to use my flaws.
@clay xd my flaws push me to distance myself from everyone i love
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ honey, mine do to, just that I don't allow them to.
Too*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ u have to control them, and make all the voices in your head that are trying to discourage you your best friends.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ keep your friends close and you enemies closer
Your ***
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ how the heck do you think I'm not falling apart? ;-;
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ the voices in my head are always talking, even more than I do, you have to learn to accept their words, don't let them get you down
@clay well i cant get anymore down without killing myself which i cant do rn
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ goodness, could you try to take care of yourself more?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm seriously getting worried for you
@clay i guess
@clay i mean yeah ofcourse
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ look, I dont know how to help you anymore, here are my last tips for your problem, try to write down what you're grateful for everyday
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ try praying to God, and leave the beast, he won't help you.
@clay i struggle just trying to trust people or even talk to someone i don't know, how am i supposed to do that
@clay i always thought when i got to my lowest point it would be me feeling like i should kill myself immediately, but really it feel
@clay feels like nothing, im completely numb to everything
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ look, try some apps that may help you with depression, try praying to God and reading the Bible, and just be sorry and God will
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ forgive you,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ all your life will change once you'll come back to him, you're unlucky and sad just because you're with Satan, be with God
@clay its like, someone could slap me across the face i would just go back to staring at the ceiling and not even be bothered by it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I get it, i know how you feel, i know Exacly how you feel
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if I would be there rn, I would hug you, then build a blanket fort and stay there with you forever.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm crying.. I can't help you.. I failed...
@clay wdym
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm horrible.. I deserve to die, I can't help people, I'm just making it worse. Instead of having a friend like me, go find someone
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ else, for your own good
@clay whats with the sudden mood swing? whats wrong
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm failing..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's all my fault.. I'm sorry
@clay failing at what??
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ at absolutely everything
@clay you aren't horrible, you don't deserve to die, you help me everyday, you aren't making it worse, you are my best friend.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ no, I'm not making better, I'm trying so hard to help you but I end up making it worse
@clay why do you think you are making it worse?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and only the fact that I can't bring you back to God's love, all the fake words you've heard about Satan made you hate God.. I can't
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ because you always end up in a horrible mood after talking to me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's all my fault, why can't I hide it again?
@clay I've had that im a Satanist in my bio for like the past month, how'd you just now notice xp
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i knew that.. But I didn't knew if you were serious
@clay and no. after talking to you it makes me feel a whole lot better
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I was afraid to point that out
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i still feel like it's not enough
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i feel like I'm always getting you down
@clay look. we both have two different beliefs. and thats okay. you don't have to like mine and i don't have to like yours but we
@clay need to atleast respect eachothers desicions
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just.. Why did you choose to be with his side?
decisions* i always confuse the s and c
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if my dad would hear that you're a Satanist he would kill me for even talking to you.
@clay because god let me live a bad life and never once helped
@clay well for one, you don't have to tell him and two, stop talking to me then
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ did you ever prayed to him? Did you ever asked him for help? Did you ever read any of his books?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so how did Satan helped you and God didn't?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ DO YOU THINK I CAN GIVE UP SO EASY ON YOU? WHO DO YOU THINK I AM?
@clay yes i have done all of those things. Satan got me closer to death than anyone, im thankful to have that experience
@clay idek you so
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm crying so much right now
@clay you cant be mad at me for liking Satan for that. because you still love your mom and she almost killed u
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ my mom is a person, Satan is the devil. he's no good, he's evil and will never want your life good
@clay well, good isnt always fun
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ please get back to God, he loves you, he cares for you and would make the whole world wait for you
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ for me, pretty please?..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ sometimes people tell me that I'm an angel sent from heavens, why would I be talking to you right now if I aint trying to bring you on
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ the right path?
@clay if he loved me he wouldn't give me an awful life, now would he.
@clay how about instead, just accept what I've chosen and i accept what you have chosen
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yes, he would give you the awful life only to test you and see how faithful you are to him
@clay you don't have to accept it. just respect my decision
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ my life was worse than yours, and still, I'd never left God, and my life was full of sudden miracles.
@clay he's testing me? sure. how does a fucking newborn and mom deserve to die in a car crash. what did the newborn do wrong to fail
@clay the test
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i cant accept yours, just get back to us, you don't want to be there, you're a young soul influenced my anything seen as "cool"
@clay do you really think I've told you everything about me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you think I did it? Ofc no
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's written in the Bible, we pay for our ancestor's, parent's, grandparent's sins, so that's why you were about to die
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but isn't it a miracle that you're alive now?
@clay no
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ isn't it a miracle how much he cares for you and tries to keep you safe from everything the beast is telling you?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you think that all the voices in your head are from God or angels? They're from the devil and his slaves
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i think I've found why your life is so bad. all you say is no, and you're never positive, I understand, you don't believe in God, then
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i respect that, but, do you believe it karma?
@clay yes. the voices aren't from them. i have D.I.D.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ excuse my imbecility, but what's that
@clay dissociative identity disorder
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ whats that supposed to mean?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ (ik,im stupid)
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i just want a better explanation, but I'm also stupid ¯\_( ͡. ͜ʖ ͡.)_/¯
@clay my uncle kidnapped and raped me when i was little, he locked me in his basement that had no light at all. i was completely
@clay alone which forced my brain to go crazy and make friends with other "people" in my head
@clay D.I.D. is where there are different personalities in your head caused by trauma
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you know that God didnt do that to you, right? Devils are all around us, causing us what you love to name "God's horrible blessing"
@clay god sets a path for us. so why was my path thar
@clay that*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ because there's also devils, that never want for your good, that's not God's fault
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you realize that the place we are in right now is hell. Right?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if we fail again, we end up in what my dad loves to name "the trash bin"
@clay so god is so powerful as to create a universe that always expands but he cant stop 1 bad thing happening in a innocent child's
@clay life.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ only one? If you would be God, you would gave up on us long time ago
@clay hell is my only home if you haven't noticed
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you realize what he has to mess with everyday?
@clay yep. i would let everyone go fuck themselves and figure it out on their own
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ this is our second chance to get to better, don't fall for Satan's trickery
@clay you can keep trying to "fix" me. it won't work
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you have idea what he also does through? It's not easy, you should try to be one of us and try to make it better
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ id never said that im trynna fix you, I'm trying to help you
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but you seem to never care about my opinion, or not even about me, I'd always wanted for your good, but youre always harsh and never
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ listen to anyone else than yourself, you don't know everything, you should try listening to others too.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm done trying to be nice only to not hurt your feelings, I just can't do it, I failed again, as always.
@clay i do. all you ever do is talk about your friends and Gabi and how you think you aren't perfect and shit like that but atleast
@clay you have friends
@clay all i ever do is listen to you
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i don't want you to get it wrong, I still care for you a lot, but I think you'll not anymore, nd I think that you'll slowly start to
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ push me away from your life.
@clay well you wouldn't be the first person. all you had to do was just respect my decision and we would be fine
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ as you say, I'm in love, it's the worst curse ever possible ;-; And I talk about them cause you ask me how my day was so I just answer
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ all I have to do is forget and pretend like I understand others, I'm never allowed to say my opinion. And help is never enough.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and if you haven't got friends, what am I?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ did you already forgot about me?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it happened.. What I mostly feared happened.. I'll miss you, just don't forget me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i dont care if you'll talk shit about me, just know that I'll miss you and will never stop caring for you you're still my best fren<')
@clay i said friends. i didn't say anything about best friends
@clay look im not gonna let this disagreement ruin everything okay?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm so happy that you think like that..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just so you know, God loves you and will always be ready to welcome you back, the heavens will be happier than ever before to know
@clay i gtg but i might be back on later mkay? love you as a bsf
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that you are back to us, and "fixed" your fate
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ alright, luv you too, not in that way--
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ its a Sister - brother love ;v;
@clay lol boo
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ boO
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that was fast! ^-^
@clay XD yea
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i feel a little down, I'd rather not to say why, I don't wanna bother you, so, if I seem different, don't worry! I'm fine
@clay im sorry for what i said earlier, i was just upset because i felt stressed
@clay you can talk to me i don't mind
@clay btw if i don't reply its because im looking for new art to color
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hm, could I post an image and you try to color it?
@clay sure
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just found something cute! ^^
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm searching for more, I want you to have where to choose from
@clay i collected a pic and you deleted it lmao
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ wut?
@clay oop wait im confused, i go to the ones I've collected it says its deleted but i still see the post
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i didnt do that
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i didnt deleted it 0-o
@clay idk i guess its messed up
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but it doesn't show up
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ anyway, I posted it again
@clay I've had something like that happen, you have to post it again and the other disapears
@clay nvm
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ mk, then that's just a glitch
@clay yea
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ dude, help me out a little ›-‹
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ my bff decided to start planning sleepovers when her new house will be done, and she wants to make I and blondie sleep in the same bed
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ WHAT DO I DO?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ help meehhh..-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that might mean more than 10 months, but, still, help mee
@clay well just enjoy it lmao
@clay cant really help
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm having a stroke-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and im not sure if what I feel rn is happiness-
@clay XD its happiness, nervousness
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I think soo-- Gosh, I hate her but I actually dontt
@clay lol, if i don't reply read my bio
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hm? Ok..?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ima read it now
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ omg, what happened?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ what did they found out about?
@clay me liking girls, me being genderfluid, me having social media all that crap
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ wait, didn't they knew that already? O.o
@clay they don't care that i like people based off personalities instead of gender. just the fact that, that includes girls
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i tought you told them
@clay nope
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ goshh, that's awful! I'm so sorry for that
@clay its fine, i just have to be careful from now on
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeah..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i understand you, cause i didnt came out as a therian to my parents. They won't understand and maybe think I'm insane--
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but that's pretty easy to hide
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ they heard me howling and barking many times. But they don't suspect a thing ¯\_( ͡. ͜ʖ ͡.)_/¯
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ they think that im just werid. But it's alright! <;D
@clay 👍
@clay being a therian in the USA is pretty normal
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ rlly? :0
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ in Romania it's really uncommon and weird, like, I'd never met any romanians who talk about that
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ did yoh met any therians? I knew some that are somewhere from Alaska and Virginia
@clay lol yea really.
@clay yea i have
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ omgg, so lucky, I'd never met any other therian
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ now I can't wait to visit the USA, do you have therian gear tho? ๑-๑
@clay me personally or..?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ no-no, like, in the country
@clay yea, they're pretty expensive tho
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i don't care about prices, I'm rich anywyayy, thanks for the advice, can't wait for my trip! ๑v๑
@clay 👍👍
@clay hey you there?
@clay heelooo
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeah
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hello! ^^
@clay hru
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm fine
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ there's been a lot of paranormal activity in past days, but it doesn't really bother me, I don't feel harrased by them, idk why
@clay u sure
@clay kool
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeahh, im alright, I'm just worried for blondie, cause today, we were climbing trees together and he hit his leg rlly hard,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i asked if I can help, if I call the ambulance or something, but he didn't accept any of my help :/
@clay mk
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ his brother helped him to go home, and I would like to text him but I think he fell asleep tho..
@clay well just check up on him, that might make him feel better
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh, btw, now I'm so floofin convinced that he likes me, there's no doubt ๑-๑
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeah, ima text him tomorrow, he sleeps early, while I sleep when the sunrise is here All the paranormal activity keeps me awake ಠ–ಥ
@clay lol glad you see it now
ಠ–ಥ*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ well, today when I came, I was a bit late, he literally scored a goal then left the game just to say hi to me and pat a cat that was
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ sitting on my la
Lap*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ then he sat beside me, rlly close to me, like all day, constantly, and teased me a few times ๑-๑
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i can post a pic of the cat :D
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if you would like to
@clay up to you, not me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ posted! Its adorable, I love it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hey, I've got an idea
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i would like to give blondie a cute bracelet that I totally love, I got one looking the same, but it doesn't really fit me,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i feel like it'll be his lucky charm.
@clay do it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ alright! ^°^
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i wanted to ask for your advice on that
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ henlo.. U there? **boops nose**I wants a hug :<
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i is smol, scared and sad, and I miss chu ;<
@clay *hugz*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yayy!! ^°^**hugs back**
@clay heelo
@clay *hugs again*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ awhh.. That means a lot :D**hugs back**
@clay (:
@clay hey
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ heyy
@clay boo
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ boo ღ
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hru?
@clay idk, wbu
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm extremely happy!
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ a little sad, but happy because he is happy (at least I hope so)
@clay thats awesome 👍
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he's in a trip with his family and his best friend, I called him and he seemed so happy! ^°^
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ NEXT TRIP IM JOINING THEM
u-u
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but still, I'm very happy, this day was extremely boring and disappointing, but after we talked for those smoll 2 minutes everything
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ has brightened up!^°^
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ayy, dude, did anything happen between you, rinzato and ivy?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I've read some shit said by Rin on ivy's post, and I would like to know what happened, if it ain't bothering you
@clay me and ivy like eachother, rinzato said she had a crush on me, so i told ivy and rinzato got mad and was harassing ivy
@clay everything is okay now
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ wait, isn't Rin like.. 9
@clay yep, exactly
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ goshh, children these days, at her age I was playing with Legos with my actual friend group ;-;
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ Gabi looked like a floofin rapist back then-- I looked like I grew up in the woods..
@clay lol me i would be acting like a crackhead with mah fwens
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i did the same
@clay xd im interested now lmao how exactly did he look like a rapist
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i actually ate a leaf once, blondie ate grass. We were the weirdos..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ his smile was rlly creepy, his hair was pretty messy and he was missing some teeth--
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ we were some weird children tho..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he got the cops called on him once for stealing someone's mail just by thinking that there's chocolate inside.
@clay didn't everyone eat grass atleast once
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i didnt ate grass, not even once ;>;"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ how's that even possible? Why am I relating my everyday life to it?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ayy, dude, is it bad that I just noticed my blood tastes like alcohol?- *my tooth keeps bleeding, don't worry, I'm fine
@clay uhmm idk
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yup, I'm weird as always.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but damnn, I like its taste, it's like wine, gosh, I'm so weird..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so, wanna chat?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yashh
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's 3 am and I can't sleep.. ๑-๑
@clay im sorry
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's okay, im fine
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i miss him so muchh ๑¬๑
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i cant stop thinking at him ~-~ when I called him, his best friend answered, we were both confused cause I couldn't recognize his
Voice, it was pretty awkward, then he said "nOo, iT aInT mE, iM.. A rAt"
Then after I finally recognized his voice, he stopped joking and yelled at blondie "dUde, iTs aNna, cOme taLk tO hEr"
Then I started talking to blondie, and goshh, his voice sounded so happy.. ʼ°ʼ
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ aghh, I miss soo much..๑-๑ can't wait to see him again
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he sounded so happy but still very shy and insecure, aghhh.. ~^~
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh, and today some of my friends have asked me these questions "are you drunk?", "are you okay?"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and my cousin asked "are you in love or something?"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ they asked if I'm drunk just cause I was laughing like a psychopath and I was acting different than unusual-
Usual*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ the "are you ok"was cause I suddenly became very silent (idrk why)
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i cant explain anything that happened today.. ;^;"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ this day was just very very confusing and just such a mess ʼ¯ʼ
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ agh, I think I need some sleep
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ good nightღ
@clay night night
@clay 🎶its 1 am and i cant sleeppppp
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ lmao, its 2 pm and I just woke up
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ heyy.. I had a fight with a guy :'D
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i got hit with some rocks..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i strangled him and kicked him in the ribcage 2 times
@clay who won, more importantly is he dead and are you okay
@clay omigawd that scared me, atfirst it sounded like my teacher was playing one of Kapelsu's subliminals XD
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i won,and if it really did, that would be awesome! :0
@clay no because she's trying to control us then
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh right
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ayy, bro, today I kept getting In the same team as blondie, our friends kept teaming uss
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and all the time he was touching my hair, nearly hugging me *-*
@clay uwu 💜
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ omIgaWd
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i heard blondie saying to one of his friends "no, dude, Anna is different, she's not like the other girls..they're not even comparing
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ to her. "
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and after we ended up in the same team constantly, we won every game `°`
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ we ended up being "the winners" or "the best team" as our friends called us.
@clay awww
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ aghh.. We just said goodbye and I already miss him
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ now I just wanna fall asleep already so I can see him again <((
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he's the only reason i remained alive
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and he's also the only reason I'm still hanging out with my actual friends
@clay mkay
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ughh.. This is the worst day I've had in such a long time
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ id nearly deleted my acc, I cried so so much, I barely slept 3 hours, had to go to school and everyone was mad at me for no reason
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ whenever I'm sad, I'm unpredictable. I'm always like that, I don't know how I will react next.
@clay I'ma stare at my ceiling for awhile, if you wanna talk I'll be here
@clay if you passed out infront of you i bet he'd pick you up, lay you on the couch and try to wake you up
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yes, he'll pick me up, throw me on a couch or bed and start sobbing t'ill I wake up.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ jk,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he would know instantly how to wake me up, he's a smart-a**
@clay he might
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ HE ALWAYS KNOWS WHAT TO DO, LIKE, HOWW?
@clay XD
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I also do, but I say it only when others can't solve it ;{
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ cause then I'll make a bad reputation and I don't want that
@clay yeah
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I wanna share this smoll story with you cause why not?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so, few weeks ago, I was with Gabi around my friend group, they were being silly, as usual, but somehow weve been left alone and my
Head started to hurt like hell and I was sweating a lot, I asked Gabi to hold my glasses so I could wipe off the sweat from my face, and he
Decided to try them on, I couldn't see his face clearly, but he seems like a cute and innocent child discoving something completely new
They also didn't fit him,and he said "they're so smoll and cute, I didn't knew your head was so small :O"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ nd he started teasing me cause I could see, and he gave them back only when he noticed that I wasn't playing and that my mood wasn't
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ good. After he handed my glasses back to me, he tried to brighten up my mood and he was just so cute *-*
Couldn't *
@clay thats adorable 💚💛
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yass..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and he can always make me laugh. I'm not sure how, he starts acting goofy and silly in front of me and I end up laughing like a psycho
@clay ivy won't text me backkkkkkkk
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I can relate on that- Blondie never texts back
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he prefers calls, you shall try calling her? Maybe FaceTime?
@clay we cant have eachothers numbers sadly, i don't wanna risk her being kicked out
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ kicked out? Out of where?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just pretend that you're "just friends"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I dont think her family will find out
@clay out of her house, her parents are homophobic
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ disgusting, I hate homophobic people
@clay same
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ like, can't you just accept everybody? I bet homos don't like you neither--
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ( ͡ಥ ͜ʖ ͡ಥ)
@clay XD
@clay but still i really don't want to risk it for her
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you could fool her parents that you're just friends
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I think lying is fine, only if it means to help someone
@clay well i still won't do it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ alright, I was just saying.
@clay we both agreed that once we get decent jobs and move out that we will meet up
@clay thats only if we hopefully still keep in touch
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you could try manifesting it with subs..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I made a manifestation playlist for me, I hope it'll work as fast as possible and that we'll soon meet! 💕
@clay me too
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ^°^
@clay which subliminal should i use
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ uh, I'm not sure
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ there are plenty of options
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I highly recommend kapelsu's effortlessly manifestation sub, +sum boosters and blockage removers and noonchi's ideal scenarios sub
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ (re-upload, cause her channel got hacked)
@clay ok
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh, and for your situation, I recommend kapelsu's friendship restoration sub and attract your crush sub, they both have affirmations
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that fit your situation
@clay yea i have been daily, and I've noticed me and ivy have been getting closer
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ heh, I just made a new playlist only for manifestation, ill keep you updated!
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I wish you good luck too! ^°^
@clay okay
@clay you too, thx
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so, do you want to start listening now? I can leave, if you want me to
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm hungry and a little sleepy too, so, I won't be mad
@clay its okay im here i was just making a playlist
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hewwo
@clay het
@clay hey*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ how's your journey going? I didn't start mine yet, I couldn't get enough time to listen
@clay eh, i gave up to be honest
@clay i just haven't been my best today
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ a-alright.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ then I'll try my best to manifest it alone..
@clay you don't have to, idc anymore
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ well, i do.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I would love to meet you, no matter the cost
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and what do you mean by "idc anymore" you don't care about me? ;\
@clay its never gonna happen anyway.. id push you away sooner or later. probably sooner
@clay no. no. don't get me wrong youre one of my favorite people
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ well, I'll never forget you, no matter what will happen
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I wouldn't let you to push me away, cause I'm extremely annoying, so I will somehow get to talk to you
@clay xd
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ u-u I just know how to use my flaws.
@clay xd my flaws push me to distance myself from everyone i love
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ honey, mine do to, just that I don't allow them to.
Too*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ u have to control them, and make all the voices in your head that are trying to discourage you your best friends.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ keep your friends close and you enemies closer
Your ***
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ how the heck do you think I'm not falling apart? ;-;
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ the voices in my head are always talking, even more than I do, you have to learn to accept their words, don't let them get you down
@clay well i cant get anymore down without killing myself which i cant do rn
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ goodness, could you try to take care of yourself more?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm seriously getting worried for you
@clay i guess
@clay i mean yeah ofcourse
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ look, I dont know how to help you anymore, here are my last tips for your problem, try to write down what you're grateful for everyday
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ try praying to God, and leave the beast, he won't help you.
@clay i struggle just trying to trust people or even talk to someone i don't know, how am i supposed to do that
@clay i always thought when i got to my lowest point it would be me feeling like i should kill myself immediately, but really it feel
@clay feels like nothing, im completely numb to everything
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ look, try some apps that may help you with depression, try praying to God and reading the Bible, and just be sorry and God will
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ forgive you,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ all your life will change once you'll come back to him, you're unlucky and sad just because you're with Satan, be with God
@clay its like, someone could slap me across the face i would just go back to staring at the ceiling and not even be bothered by it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I get it, i know how you feel, i know Exacly how you feel
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if I would be there rn, I would hug you, then build a blanket fort and stay there with you forever.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm crying.. I can't help you.. I failed...
@clay wdym
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm horrible.. I deserve to die, I can't help people, I'm just making it worse. Instead of having a friend like me, go find someone
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ else, for your own good
@clay whats with the sudden mood swing? whats wrong
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm failing..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's all my fault.. I'm sorry
@clay failing at what??
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ at absolutely everything
@clay you aren't horrible, you don't deserve to die, you help me everyday, you aren't making it worse, you are my best friend.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ no, I'm not making better, I'm trying so hard to help you but I end up making it worse
@clay why do you think you are making it worse?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and only the fact that I can't bring you back to God's love, all the fake words you've heard about Satan made you hate God.. I can't
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ because you always end up in a horrible mood after talking to me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's all my fault, why can't I hide it again?
@clay I've had that im a Satanist in my bio for like the past month, how'd you just now notice xp
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i knew that.. But I didn't knew if you were serious
@clay and no. after talking to you it makes me feel a whole lot better
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and I was afraid to point that out
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i still feel like it's not enough
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i feel like I'm always getting you down
@clay look. we both have two different beliefs. and thats okay. you don't have to like mine and i don't have to like yours but we
@clay need to atleast respect eachothers desicions
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just.. Why did you choose to be with his side?
decisions* i always confuse the s and c
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if my dad would hear that you're a Satanist he would kill me for even talking to you.
@clay because god let me live a bad life and never once helped
@clay well for one, you don't have to tell him and two, stop talking to me then
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ did you ever prayed to him? Did you ever asked him for help? Did you ever read any of his books?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so how did Satan helped you and God didn't?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ DO YOU THINK I CAN GIVE UP SO EASY ON YOU? WHO DO YOU THINK I AM?
@clay yes i have done all of those things. Satan got me closer to death than anyone, im thankful to have that experience
@clay idek you so
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm crying so much right now
@clay you cant be mad at me for liking Satan for that. because you still love your mom and she almost killed u
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ my mom is a person, Satan is the devil. he's no good, he's evil and will never want your life good
@clay well, good isnt always fun
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ please get back to God, he loves you, he cares for you and would make the whole world wait for you
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ for me, pretty please?..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ sometimes people tell me that I'm an angel sent from heavens, why would I be talking to you right now if I aint trying to bring you on
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ the right path?
@clay if he loved me he wouldn't give me an awful life, now would he.
@clay how about instead, just accept what I've chosen and i accept what you have chosen
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yes, he would give you the awful life only to test you and see how faithful you are to him
@clay you don't have to accept it. just respect my decision
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ my life was worse than yours, and still, I'd never left God, and my life was full of sudden miracles.
@clay he's testing me? sure. how does a fucking newborn and mom deserve to die in a car crash. what did the newborn do wrong to fail
@clay the test
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i cant accept yours, just get back to us, you don't want to be there, you're a young soul influenced my anything seen as "cool"
@clay do you really think I've told you everything about me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you think I did it? Ofc no
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's written in the Bible, we pay for our ancestor's, parent's, grandparent's sins, so that's why you were about to die
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but isn't it a miracle that you're alive now?
@clay no
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ isn't it a miracle how much he cares for you and tries to keep you safe from everything the beast is telling you?
@clay no
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you think that all the voices in your head are from God or angels? They're from the devil and his slaves
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i think I've found why your life is so bad. all you say is no, and you're never positive, I understand, you don't believe in God, then
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i respect that, but, do you believe it karma?
@clay yes. the voices aren't from them. i have D.I.D.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ excuse my imbecility, but what's that
@clay dissociative identity disorder
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ whats that supposed to mean?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ (ik,im stupid)
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i just want a better explanation, but I'm also stupid ¯\_( ͡. ͜ʖ ͡.)_/¯
@clay my uncle kidnapped and raped me when i was little, he locked me in his basement that had no light at all. i was completely
@clay alone which forced my brain to go crazy and make friends with other "people" in my head
@clay D.I.D. is where there are different personalities in your head caused by trauma
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you know that God didnt do that to you, right? Devils are all around us, causing us what you love to name "God's horrible blessing"
@clay god sets a path for us. so why was my path thar
@clay that*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ because there's also devils, that never want for your good, that's not God's fault
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ you realize that the place we are in right now is hell. Right?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if we fail again, we end up in what my dad loves to name "the trash bin"
@clay so god is so powerful as to create a universe that always expands but he cant stop 1 bad thing happening in a innocent child's
@clay life.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ only one? If you would be God, you would gave up on us long time ago
@clay hell is my only home if you haven't noticed
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you realize what he has to mess with everyday?
@clay yep. i would let everyone go fuck themselves and figure it out on their own
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ this is our second chance to get to better, don't fall for Satan's trickery
@clay you can keep trying to "fix" me. it won't work
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ do you have idea what he also does through? It's not easy, you should try to be one of us and try to make it better
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ id never said that im trynna fix you, I'm trying to help you
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but you seem to never care about my opinion, or not even about me, I'd always wanted for your good, but youre always harsh and never
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ listen to anyone else than yourself, you don't know everything, you should try listening to others too.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm done trying to be nice only to not hurt your feelings, I just can't do it, I failed again, as always.
@clay i do. all you ever do is talk about your friends and Gabi and how you think you aren't perfect and shit like that but atleast
@clay you have friends
@clay all i ever do is listen to you
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i don't want you to get it wrong, I still care for you a lot, but I think you'll not anymore, nd I think that you'll slowly start to
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ push me away from your life.
@clay well you wouldn't be the first person. all you had to do was just respect my decision and we would be fine
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ as you say, I'm in love, it's the worst curse ever possible ;-; And I talk about them cause you ask me how my day was so I just answer
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ all I have to do is forget and pretend like I understand others, I'm never allowed to say my opinion. And help is never enough.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and if you haven't got friends, what am I?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ did you already forgot about me?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it happened.. What I mostly feared happened.. I'll miss you, just don't forget me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i dont care if you'll talk shit about me, just know that I'll miss you and will never stop caring for you you're still my best fren<')
@clay i said friends. i didn't say anything about best friends
@clay look im not gonna let this disagreement ruin everything okay?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm so happy that you think like that..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just so you know, God loves you and will always be ready to welcome you back, the heavens will be happier than ever before to know
@clay i gtg but i might be back on later mkay? love you as a bsf
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that you are back to us, and "fixed" your fate
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ alright, luv you too, not in that way--
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ its a Sister - brother love ;v;
@clay lol boo
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ boO
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that was fast! ^-^
@clay XD yea
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i feel a little down, I'd rather not to say why, I don't wanna bother you, so, if I seem different, don't worry! I'm fine
@clay im sorry for what i said earlier, i was just upset because i felt stressed
@clay you can talk to me i don't mind
@clay btw if i don't reply its because im looking for new art to color
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hm, could I post an image and you try to color it?
@clay sure
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ just found something cute! ^^
@clay ok
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm searching for more, I want you to have where to choose from
@clay ok
@clay i collected a pic and you deleted it lmao
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ wut?
@clay oop wait im confused, i go to the ones I've collected it says its deleted but i still see the post
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i didnt do that
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i didnt deleted it 0-o
@clay idk i guess its messed up
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but it doesn't show up
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ anyway, I posted it again
@clay I've had something like that happen, you have to post it again and the other disapears
@clay nvm
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ mk, then that's just a glitch
@clay yea
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ dude, help me out a little ›-‹
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ my bff decided to start planning sleepovers when her new house will be done, and she wants to make I and blondie sleep in the same bed
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ WHAT DO I DO?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ help meehhh..-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ that might mean more than 10 months, but, still, help mee
@clay well just enjoy it lmao
@clay cant really help
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm having a stroke-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and im not sure if what I feel rn is happiness-
@clay XD its happiness, nervousness
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I think soo-- Gosh, I hate her but I actually dontt
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ( ͡ಥ ͜ʖ ͡ಥ)
@clay lol, if i don't reply read my bio
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hm? Ok..?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ima read it now
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ omg, what happened?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ what did they found out about?
@clay me liking girls, me being genderfluid, me having social media all that crap
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ wait, didn't they knew that already? O.o
@clay they don't care that i like people based off personalities instead of gender. just the fact that, that includes girls
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i tought you told them
@clay nope
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ goshh, that's awful! I'm so sorry for that
@clay its fine, i just have to be careful from now on
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeah..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i understand you, cause i didnt came out as a therian to my parents. They won't understand and maybe think I'm insane--
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but that's pretty easy to hide
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ they heard me howling and barking many times. But they don't suspect a thing ¯\_( ͡. ͜ʖ ͡.)_/¯
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ they think that im just werid. But it's alright! <;D
@clay 👍
@clay being a therian in the USA is pretty normal
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ rlly? :0
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ in Romania it's really uncommon and weird, like, I'd never met any romanians who talk about that
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ did yoh met any therians? I knew some that are somewhere from Alaska and Virginia
@clay lol yea really.
@clay yea i have
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ omgg, so lucky, I'd never met any other therian
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ now I can't wait to visit the USA, do you have therian gear tho? ๑-๑
@clay me personally or..?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ no-no, like, in the country
@clay yea, they're pretty expensive tho
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i don't care about prices, I'm rich anywyayy, thanks for the advice, can't wait for my trip! ๑v๑
@clay 👍👍
@clay hey you there?
@clay heelooo
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeah
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hello! ^^
@clay hru
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm fine
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ there's been a lot of paranormal activity in past days, but it doesn't really bother me, I don't feel harrased by them, idk why
@clay u sure
@clay kool
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeahh, im alright, I'm just worried for blondie, cause today, we were climbing trees together and he hit his leg rlly hard,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i asked if I can help, if I call the ambulance or something, but he didn't accept any of my help :/
@clay mk
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ his brother helped him to go home, and I would like to text him but I think he fell asleep tho..
@clay well just check up on him, that might make him feel better
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh, btw, now I'm so floofin convinced that he likes me, there's no doubt ๑-๑
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yeah, ima text him tomorrow, he sleeps early, while I sleep when the sunrise is here All the paranormal activity keeps me awake ಠ–ಥ
@clay lol glad you see it now
ಠ–ಥ*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ well, today when I came, I was a bit late, he literally scored a goal then left the game just to say hi to me and pat a cat that was
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ sitting on my la
Lap*
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ then he sat beside me, rlly close to me, like all day, constantly, and teased me a few times ๑-๑
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i can post a pic of the cat :D
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ if you would like to
@clay up to you, not me
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ posted! Its adorable, I love it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hey, I've got an idea
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i would like to give blondie a cute bracelet that I totally love, I got one looking the same, but it doesn't really fit me,
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i feel like it'll be his lucky charm.
@clay do it
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ alright! ^°^
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i wanted to ask for your advice on that
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ henlo.. U there? **boops nose**I wants a hug :<
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i is smol, scared and sad, and I miss chu ;<
@clay *hugz*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yayy!! ^°^**hugs back**
@clay heelo
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hewwo
@clay *hugs again*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ awhh.. That means a lot :D**hugs back**
@clay (:
@clay hey
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ heyy
@clay boo
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ boo ღ
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ hru?
@clay idk, wbu
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I'm extremely happy!
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ a little sad, but happy because he is happy (at least I hope so)
@clay thats awesome 👍
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he's in a trip with his family and his best friend, I called him and he seemed so happy! ^°^
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ NEXT TRIP IM JOINING THEM
u-u
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but still, I'm very happy, this day was extremely boring and disappointing, but after we talked for those smoll 2 minutes everything
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ has brightened up!^°^
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ayy, dude, did anything happen between you, rinzato and ivy?
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ I've read some shit said by Rin on ivy's post, and I would like to know what happened, if it ain't bothering you
@clay me and ivy like eachother, rinzato said she had a crush on me, so i told ivy and rinzato got mad and was harassing ivy
@clay everything is okay now
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ wait, isn't Rin like.. 9
@clay yep, exactly
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ goshh, children these days, at her age I was playing with Legos with my actual friend group ;-;
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ Gabi looked like a floofin rapist back then-- I looked like I grew up in the woods..
@clay lol me i would be acting like a crackhead with mah fwens
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i did the same
@clay xd im interested now lmao how exactly did he look like a rapist
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i actually ate a leaf once, blondie ate grass. We were the weirdos..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ his smile was rlly creepy, his hair was pretty messy and he was missing some teeth--
@clay XD
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ we were some weird children tho..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he got the cops called on him once for stealing someone's mail just by thinking that there's chocolate inside.
@clay didn't everyone eat grass atleast once
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i didnt ate grass, not even once ;>;"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ how's that even possible? Why am I relating my everyday life to it?-
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ayy, dude, is it bad that I just noticed my blood tastes like alcohol?- *my tooth keeps bleeding, don't worry, I'm fine
@clay uhmm idk
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yup, I'm weird as always.
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ but damnn, I like its taste, it's like wine, gosh, I'm so weird..
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ so, wanna chat?
@clay sure
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ yashh
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's 3 am and I can't sleep.. ๑-๑
@clay im sorry
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ it's okay, im fine
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i miss him so muchh ๑¬๑
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i cant stop thinking at him ~-~ when I called him, his best friend answered, we were both confused cause I couldn't recognize his
Voice, it was pretty awkward, then he said "nOo, iT aInT mE, iM.. A rAt"
Then after I finally recognized his voice, he stopped joking and yelled at blondie "dUde, iTs aNna, cOme taLk tO hEr"
Then I started talking to blondie, and goshh, his voice sounded so happy.. ʼ°ʼ
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ aghh, I miss soo much..๑-๑ can't wait to see him again
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he sounded so happy but still very shy and insecure, aghhh.. ~^~
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh, and today some of my friends have asked me these questions "are you drunk?", "are you okay?"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and my cousin asked "are you in love or something?"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ they asked if I'm drunk just cause I was laughing like a psychopath and I was acting different than unusual-
Usual*
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ the "are you ok"was cause I suddenly became very silent (idrk why)
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i cant explain anything that happened today.. ;^;"
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ this day was just very very confusing and just such a mess ʼ¯ʼ
@clay xd
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ agh, I think I need some sleep
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ good nightღ
@clay night night
@clay 🎶its 1 am and i cant sleeppppp
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ lmao, its 2 pm and I just woke up
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ heyy.. I had a fight with a guy :'D
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i got hit with some rocks..
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i strangled him and kicked him in the ribcage 2 times
@clay who won, more importantly is he dead and are you okay
@clay omigawd that scared me, atfirst it sounded like my teacher was playing one of Kapelsu's subliminals XD
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i won,and if it really did, that would be awesome! :0
@clay no because she's trying to control us then
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ oh right
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ayy, bro, today I kept getting In the same team as blondie, our friends kept teaming uss
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and all the time he was touching my hair, nearly hugging me *-*
@clay uwu 💜
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ omIgaWd
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ i heard blondie saying to one of his friends "no, dude, Anna is different, she's not like the other girls..they're not even comparing
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ to her. "
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and after we ended up in the same team constantly, we won every game `°`
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ we ended up being "the winners" or "the best team" as our friends called us.
@clay awww
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ aghh.. We just said goodbye and I already miss him
@clay lol
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ now I just wanna fall asleep already so I can see him again <((
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ he's the only reason i remained alive
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ and he's also the only reason I'm still hanging out with my actual friends
@clay mkay
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ ughh.. This is the worst day I've had in such a long time
@❧☥ₐₙᵤbᵢₛ☥☽❦ id nearly deleted my acc, I cried so so much, I barely slept 3 hours, had to go to school and everyone was mad at me for no reason
@clay im sorry